One thing more

I forgot one thing, I lost my parents in the month of October, Mom on the 1st and Dad on the 25th, I just want them to know I miss them everyday and I love them so much.  Can't wait until we meet again!  Love, Cricket(my name that I am called by family, it really is my middle name)

A Great Day!

What a beautiful morning it was today, now it is raining very hard.  I am grateful for the rain in so many ways, I really couldn't live without water, I am a ice water junkie!!  Everyday I drink at least 12 cups of water-12 oz.. at least.  My body is use to it, but yes I still pee constantly!!  I went to the junk yard with my hubbsters this morning, I was so amazed at what people throw away and what people search for in junk!!  There was old, old cars and trucks, old washer machines, bikes, tractors and the list goes on and on.  While I was looking at this stuff I started thinking about the people that used it when it was brand new, it must have been like heaven to have a new washer back in those days and not have to do all the laundry by hand!!!  Can you image having to go out every morning when it was freezing and crank the car up?  YIKES!  I do have to say that the bikes that were used back then are so much cooler then what we have no days!  Banana seats are the best!  I have always thought that if I could have any super power, I would like to be able to see in the past, like who used that rolling pin when it was brand new, or how that house looked when it was first painted.  I am always telling my hubbsters as we are taking a drive, I wonder who first used that old milk can, or I wonder who planted that rose bush, my mind never stops wondering!!  Wouldn't that be a awesome super power, I think so.
    After going to the junk yard, we went and got breakfast from the Maverick gas station, YUKIE!!  That is the only place to go around us, without having to drive 30 minutes, I did get my yummy coke with rabbit turd ice, there was a time in my life, like 5years ago that I wouldn't drink soda for nothing. I just didn't like it, now I can't make a day without a coke, actually I can go two days!!  I really wish I could stop, but it seems to calm my stress levels.  After getting a coke and nasty breakfast sandwich, we went home and watch General Conference, for those of you who don't know what that is, let me explain a little.  I am a Mormon, I belong to the church of Jesus Christ and every six months our church leaders speak to us and encourage us to change our lives for the better, and to serve others like Jesus Christ did.  It really is uplifting and inspiring to hear these talks.  After Conference was over, I took myself upstairs and started sewing my dolls, my hubbsters went outside to work on his old trucks and our 10yr. old son, played lego"s until he started feeling yucky(flu season).  I have enjoyed just being at home today and thinking about all that I have to be thankful for, I have a wonderful hubbsters, beautiful children, grandchildren, a warm home full of love and peace, provisions to help us etc.  I pondered on all my blessings and came to the conclusion that I am very blessed.  The one blessing I am most grateful for today is PEACE, I love the fact that it is so peaceful where we live and in our home.  Such a great feeling!
   After sewing on dolls and getting dinner(thank you to the hubbsters for making breakfast burritos), I am taking the time to write, even if I am the only one to read it, it helps to get things out.  Today was a great day!!!!  Love, Me

A PRIMITIVE GAL-

I will start out by explaining why I started blogging again.  In the past two years I have been dealing with a disease that not many understand.  I call it my "Crying Disease," others call it depression.  I am at a point in my life where I am a mom to one child left at home, who is at school all day(7am-4:45pm) that leaves me with almost 10 hours of being all alone.  I live up in the mountains where neighbors and friends are few, so I really am alone.  MAKING ONE THING CLEAR-I AM NOT WRITING THIS BLOG FOR ANY KIND OF PITY, I AM WRITING THIS TO MAYBE INSPIRE MYSELF AND OTHERS!!  Now on to my story, depression has a way of making you feel worthless, tired all the time, angry, lonely, crying all the time, not knowing what to do with yourself even when your day is planned out.  I figured if I write down some of my experiences with life it would help me to see where I might need guidance and change.  This is not going to be a depressing blog for I am not a negative person, I love life and I am going to figure it all out!!  I hope you will share my journey and maybe laugh or cry a little.

A FUN THING I DID TODAY-I HAVE BEEN MAKING PRIMITIVE DOLLS, SNOWMEN, SANTA'S ETC. TO SELL AND TRY TO GET A LITTLE CHRISTMAS MONEY.  

HAVE A RESTFUL NIGHT, CHERISE-A.K.A CRICKET

My Girls

I am so proud of my daughters, I see that they are self sufficient, strong and compassionate women. It makes my heart swell with love everytime I see them overcome a trial or accomplish a great feat in life, I am so proud that they love their Heavenly Father and are trying to be strong in these hard times. I am proud that Contessa is such a good mommy and that she keeps strong in what she believes in, I am proud of Cherokee and that she is getting an education and that she keeps her chin up and doesn't back down. I have been truly blessed to be the mother of these two daughters of God, I love you both more than anything.

I love the men in my life!!

First I love of course Marty, he truly is my soul mate. I can't believe we have been together for 22 yrs., I am happy to say that we still look at each other like we are the only two people on earth. We had a great weekend together, we went to lunch and a movie, got roses and some other very fun stuff!! We haven't had a lot of alone time lately, so it was so nice to just have him to myself and talk and hold hands. I am so glad that cupid shot my heart in the Hardee's parking lot 22 yrs. ago!! I love ya s.t.
My two boys are next in my life, I love being a mom to them. I love that Chevy is so good at helping me when Marty is gone and the fact that he smiles and laughs with me. I love that he is still my fluffy kitty and has a tender heart. I love that Cash is my shinning star, he gives me kisses and doesn't care that others might be watching, he tells me he loves me all the time. He reminds me everyday that I have witnessed a miracle in my life and I am so grateful to have him.
I love these men who are truly still little boys at heart, they are my life and I am thankful for that!! Love ya Marty, Cash, Chevy

GOOD GRIEF!

I LIKE TO WRITE IN CAPS, NOT BECAUSE I AM ANGRY JUST BECAUSE I CAN SEE BETTER!! JUST IN CASE ANYONE THINKS I AM ANGRY AT SOMETHING. LOL WELL THE TIME HAS FLOWN BY ONCE AGAIN AND I AM STILL BLOGGING ON A HALLOWEEN BACKGROUND, I JUST CAN'T KEEP UP. THE BEST NEWS OF THIS MONTH IS THAT WE ARE GOING TO BE GRANDPARENTS AGAIN!! I AM VERY EXCITED SINCE I STILL FEEL YOUNG AND I STILL GET VERY BABY HUNGRY, I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW THE SEASONS OF LIFE JUST SEEM TO PASS BY SO QUICKLY. I REMEMBER HAVING CONTESSA AND HOW YOUNG MARTY AND ME WERE, I WAS WAY THINNER OF COURSE, AND MARTY HAD TONS MORE HAIR!! I WAS FEELING A LITTLE DOWN THE OTHER DAY, IT SEEMS LIKE MY NEST JUST KEEPS GETTING A LITTLE MORE LESS EACH DAY. OF COURSE I WILL HAVE MY CASH FOR AWHILE, BUT I MISS MY GIRLS AND HAVING EVERYONE HOME TO PUT TO BED AND DO HOMEWORK WITH AND CLEAN UP AFTER. THERE HAS ALWAYS BEEN A PART OF ME THAT HAS FELT THAT MARTY AND ME AREN'T DONE BEING PARENTS, BUT I AM NOT SURE WHAT THAT MEANS, SINCE I AM A "IT" NOW!!LOL MAYBE IT IS JUST THIS WINTER, IT IS DRAGGING ON, I NEED TO BE OUTSIDE CLEARING OUT THE COBWEBS IN MY HEAD!! OUR FAMILY IS DOING GOOD, WE HAVE BEEN VERY BLESSED WITH GOOD HEALTH THIS YEAR, MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE WE NEVER GO ANYWHERE, BUT I AM PRETTY SURE IT IS A BLESSING ANYWAY. MARTY IS STILL TRAVELING, I THINK HE IS SICK OF IT, BUT IT IS A JOB AND THOSE ARE HARD TO COME BY. HE IS SUCH A GREAT HUSBAND AND DADDDY, HE IS ALWAYS DOING THINGS TO HELP ME AROUND THE HOUSE, I THINK HE WILL BE VERY GLAD TO HAVE OUR BASEMENT DONE. CHEVY IS A STRAIGHT A STUDENT IN SCHOOL, I AM SURE HAVING VIDEO TIME HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH GETTING GOOD GRADES. CHEROKEE IS BUSY WITH SCHOOL AND WORK, WE ARE SO PROUD OF ALL SHE DOES TO BE INDEPENDENT, SHE IS A AWESOME DAUGHTER. CASH OF COURSE CONTINUES TO DRIVE ME CRAZY DURING THE DAY, BUT IS GREAT TO SNUGGLE TO AT NIGHT. HE IS SO READY FOR SCHOOL AND IS ONE SMART LITTLE WHIP A ROO. I AM JUST TRYING TO KEEP UP ON EVERYTHING WHILE MARTY IS AWAY AND BE CONTENT AND HAPPY. WE LOVE YOU ALL, THE CARRILLO'S

TIS THE SEASON!!

WE ARE ALL JOLLY HERE IN IDAHO!! WE ARE SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS HOLIDAY SEASON, I THINK IT IS BECAUSE I HAVE REALLY STRESSED TO MY KIDS THAT I WANT IT TO REFLECT THE TRUE MEANING OF CHRISTMAS, SO WE HAVE BEEN TRYING TO SERVE ALOT. WE STARTED OFF IN SEPTEMBER WITH OUR CHRISTMAS STOCKINGS, WE DECIDED INSTEAD OF DRAWING NAMES FOR STOCKINGS THIS YEAR WE WOULD TAKE THE MONEY AND BUY SCHOOL SUPPLIES FOR THE HUMANITARIAN PROJECT. WE ENDED UP WITH AROUND 60 NOTEBOOKS, SCISSORS, RULERS, GLUE STICKS, TONS OF PENCILS AND COLORED PENCILS. THEN AS THE MONTHS HAVE GONE BY WE HAVE DONE MANY DINNERS AND KIND DEEDS FOR FRIENDS AND NEIGHBORS. WE EVEN GOT LORIN TO HELP HANG CHRISTMAS LIGHTS IN A FREEZING COLD STORM FOR A SWEET FRIEND OF MINE. WAY TO GO LORIN-HE IS AFRAID OF HEIGHTS!! MY KIDS DIDN'T EVEN COMPLAIN TO MUCH WHEN I STARTED CHRISTMAS MUSIC ON HALLOWEEN, NOT A LOT JUST A BIT!! AS A FAMILY HERE IS A LITTLE NEWS ABOUT US ALL-MARTY IS BUSY AT WORK, HE WORKS SO HARD AND PUTS ALL HIS ENERGY INTO WORK WHEN HE IS THERE. HE COMES HOME EXHAUSTED AND JUST NEEDS SOME DOWN TIME, SO I HAVE SHORTENED HIS HONEY DUE LIST(CHEVY BLESS HIS HEART HAS TAKEN OVER), HE CALLS HIS DAD A OLD MAN!! MARTY IS VERY EXCITED TO BE WORKING ON HIS OLD GMC TRUCKS, HE IS LIKE A LITTLE KID WHEN HE GETS A NEW HOSE OR SUCH. IT IS KINDA FUNNY, HE IS STARTING TO GET LITTLE ACHES AND PAINS, I JUST TELL HIM TO USE THE ICY HOT, I HAVE BEEN USING IT FOR YEARS. WE LOVE GROWING OLD TOGETHER AND LAUGH ALOT ABOUT IT. I AM ALWAYS BUSY IT SEEMS, I CLEAN, CLEAN OF COURSE IT'S THAT OCD COMING OUT IN ME!! ARGGH!! I HAVE BEEN DOING PRE-SCHOOL WITH CASH THREE DAYS A WEEK, HE IS SUCH A SMART LITTLE WHIP A ROO! IT KEEPS ME BUSY DOING LESSON PLANS AND OF COURSE CRAFTS WITH HIM. I HAVE DONE A LOT OF SEWING AND SCRAPBOOKING LATELY, SOMETHING I TRULY ENJOY!! CASH IS FULL OF IT, VERY SASSY AND SOMETIMES A LITTLE DEMANDING! HE WORRYS OVER THINGS THAT ABOUT DRIVE ME NUTS, LIKE RAINBOWS AND WHERE THEY COME FROM OR IF THERE ARE MONSTERS IN THE BASEMENT(THANKS CHEVY), I TELL YOU HIS MIND NEVER EVER QUITS. HE IS LIKE HIS DADDY THAT WAY, HIS WHEELS ARE ALWAYS TURNING. CHEVY IS MY BESTEST FRIEND RIGHT NOW, HE IS THE GREATEST SON, ALWAYS HELPING ME WITH EVERYTHING AND KEEPS ARE HOUSE HAPPY WITH HIS TEASING!! HE LIKES TO DO MODELS AND IS ENJOYING HIS AUTO CLASS AT SCHOOL. HE LIKES TO HELP HIS DAD IN THE GARAGE AND THEY TALK CAR STUFF, SO I JUST SMILE AND NOD. CHEROKEE IS BUSY WITH SCHOOL AND WORK, SHE GOT A 3.8 ON HER COLLEGE CLASSES, SHE HAS A BRAIN BECAUSE A LOT OF THOSE CLASSED WERE VERY HARD. WE ARE PROUD OF HER AND MISS HER BEING AT HOME. SHE DOES COME HOME EVERY SO OFTEN TO SQUEEZE CASH AND THE PUPPIES, RAID THE CUPBOARDS AND WATCH A MOVIE WITH US. WE HAD A AWESOME THANKSGIVING WITH THE JOHNSON AND HOWELL FAMILIES, IT WAS GREAT TO SEE EVERYONE AND JUST RELAX-THANKS TO DEBBIE AND JACK!! WE HOPE ALL IS WELL WITH EVERYONE AND THEIR FAMILIES, HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO EVERYONE!! LOVE YA THE CARRILLO'S

P.S. THE ZIPPAY'S HAVE THEIR OWN BLOG TO READ ABOUT THEM-GRANDPA DID GET TO BABYSIT THE OTHER NIGHT AND HE SAID SHE IS THE CUTEST LITTLE DICKENS!!! I THINK HE IS A LITTLE BABY HUNGRY-TO BAD HONEY WE ARE DONE!!