SO I AM NOT REALLY INTO THIS BLOG THING

I DON'T REALLY KNOW WHAT MY PROBLEM IS LATELY, I AM NOT INTO BLOGGING OR REALLY ANYTHING ELSE FOR THAT MATTER!! I THINK I AM JUST BURNED OUT ON LIFE IN GENERAL, I FEEL LIKE I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SOME KINDA HELL, AND I AM TRAPPED IN THE PART WHERE YOU JUST DON'T KNOW WETHER TO GO BACKWARDS OR FORWARDS. I THINK I AM JUST NUTS!!! ANYWAY, WOW WHAT A FAST MONTH OCTOBER WAS, IT WAS WHAT YOU CALL AN INDIAN SUMMER, EXCEPT FOR ONE DAY, IT SNOWED REALLY GOOD, BUT OTHER THAN THAT IT HAS BEEN REALLY BEAUTIFUL, THE DAYS HAVE BEEN AROUND 60 AND THE NIGHTS AROUND 40, THE LEAVES AND THE CHANGING OF EVERYTHING FROM SUMMER TO FALL HAS BEEN VERY PRETTY TO WATCH, I LOVE THIS TIME OF YEAR, THE CRUNCHY LEAVES, THE SMELLS, I LOVE TO SMELL DAMP EARTH AND BURNING LEAVES!! IT HAS BEEN A BUSY MONTH FOR OUR FAMILY, MARTY AND ME WRAPPED UP THE PAINTING THIS MONTH, UNTIL WE GET MORE MONEY AND TIME TO START DOWNSTAIRS, IT HAS BEEN KINDA NICE TO NOT HAVE TO TAPE AND PAINT, IT SURE LOOKS GOOD THOUGH. THE KIDS HAVE BEEN VERY BUSY WITH ACTIVITIES THIS MONTH, CHEVY HAS BEEN EARNING HIS SCOUT BADGES AND IS GETTING SO CLOSE TO HIS EAGLE AWARD, I AM SO PROUD OF HIM FOR STICKING WITH IT, EVEN THOUGH IT IS A PAIN IN THE HINY!! HE HAS BEEN VERY GOOD ABOUT GETTING HIS HOMEWORK DONE AND KEEPING HIS GRADES UP, FOR THIS I AM ALSO VERY THANK-FUL!! CHEROKEE, WELL WHAT CAN I SAY, SHE HAS HAD A VERY BUSY MONTH, SHE WENT TO THE HARVEST DANCE WITH TRAVIS, THEY ARE SO CUTE TOGETHER, SHE REALLY LIKES HIM, AND HE TREATS HER SO GOOD. SHE ALSO WENT TO BURLEY FOR TWO DAYS AND PLACED IN STATE, THEN THE NEXT WEEK SHE WENT TO INDIANA FOR A WHOLE WEEK, SHE HAD SO MUCH FUN AND HAD SOME VERY GOOD EXPERIENCES. SHE HAS BEEN CATCHING UP ON SLEEP AND HOMEWORK, PLUS WORKING LOTS, I AM ALSO VERY PROUD OF THE YOUNG WOMEN SHE IS AND HER BELIEF TO STAND UP FOR WHAT SHE HAS BEEN TAUGHT AND KNOWS TO BE TRUE. CONTESSA HAS BEEN TRYING TO GET HER WEDDING ALL TOGETHER AND WORK LOTS, I TRULY HOPE SHE WILL REALIZE THAT LIFE IS GOOD, BUT CAN ONLY BE GREAT IF SHE IS DOING WHAT HER FATHER IN HEAVEN WANTS HER TO DO, I KNOW SHE WILL COME AROUND BECAUSE SHE HAS BEEN TAUGHT WHAT IS RIGHT AND HER PARENTS PRACTICE THIS FAITH, BECAUSE WE KNOW IT IS TRUE. CASH IS JUST SO DANG CUTE, HE IS TALKING A LOT NOW AND FOLLOWS ME AROUND AND ASKS ME, "MOMMA, WHAT'S THAT?" HE IS SO FUN AND I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE MIRACLE OF HIS SWEET LIFE. MARTY HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO HELP ME THIS PAST MONTH, I NEVER HAVE TO DOUBT HIS LOVE OR COMMITMENT TO ME, I KNOW HE LOVES ME AND FOR THAT I AM VERY GRATEFUL FOR, HE IS SUCH A HARDWORKER, I KNOW OTHER PEOPLE HE WORKS WITH WORK HARD, BUT HE IS ALWAYS GIVING MORE THAN 100%, HE STAYS LATE, GOES IN EARLY AND ALWAYS TRIES TO FINISH UP WHAT HE HAS STARTED, I WISH PEOPLE WOULD REALIZE HOW LUCKY THEY ARE TO HAVE HIM IN THEIR LIVES, HE IS THE BEST. HE STRUGGLES A LOT WITH HIS FAMILY, HE MISSES HIS DAD SO MUCH, AND I KNOW HE WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO JUST BE ABLE TO TALK TO HIM FOR 5MIN., THIS IS SUCH A HARD LESSON TO LEARN IN LIFE, WE CAN NEVER GO BACK, I TOLD HIM THAT HIS DAD WOULD BE SO PROUD OF THE MAN THAT HE IS AND THAT HE RESPECTS HIS RELIGION AND THE WAY HE LEADS HIS FAMILY, I KNOW THAT ALEX IS WATCHING OVER MARTY, I HAVE FELT HIS PRESENCE IN MARTY'S LIFE AND IN THE WAY HE LIVES. I TRULY AM BLESSED, WE ALSO HAD FUN CARVING OUR PUMPKINS, CHEVY HELPED ME PICK THEM OUT, HE WAS SO CUTE, HE HAS A VERY TENDER HEART, WE SAW A PUMPKIN THAT WAS QUITE DEFORMED AND I TOLD HIM TO PICK ANOTHER ONE, AND HE JUST GRINNED AT ME AND SAID, " NO MOM, I THINK I WILL GET THIS ONE, I DON'T WANT IT TO GET LEFT OUT." THIS IS COMING FROM A 13 YEAR OLD, HE HAS A TENDER HEART LIKE HIS DADDY!! ON HALLOWEEN DAY, MARTY AND ME TOOK CASH TO A HUGE TRUNK OR TREAT THAT THE CITY OF IDAHO FALLS HAD, WE HAD FUN JUST THE THREE OF US, CASH DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON, BUT LOVED WATCHING ALL THE OTHER KIDS. THEN WE HAD FRIED CHICKEN AND MASHED SPUDS FOR DINNER, THEN WENT TO OUR WARD TRUNK AND TREAT, AFTER THAT WE WENT HOME AND WATCHED A SCAREY MOVIE WITH CHEVY. IT WAS GREAT FUN BEING WITH MY BOYS!! OH, I GOT A NEW CALLING IN THE WARD, I AM THE NEW SERVICE AND COMPASSION LEADER, IT WILL HELP ME TO GET TO KNOW THE LADIES IN OUR WARD, SO THAT WILL BE FUN!! I AM SO HAPPY THAT I LISTEN TO THE HOLY GHOST AND HIS GUIDING LIGHT TO HELP ME KNOW THIS IS WHERE I AM SUPPOSE TO BE RIGHT NOW IN MY LIFE, IT IS VERY TOUGH AT TIMES, BUT I AM TRYING VERY HARD TO STAY CLOSE TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER AND I KNOW HE WILL GUIDE ME. WELL FOR NOW THAT'S ALL, SEE YA, C